Eat.Pray.Love.

“Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the next day. Stop waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours. When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?” -Unknown

I'm on a search for peace & self discovery, hello step one.
Since we only live once, I vow to live every day, every moment to the very fullest. I am done letting others control my life and my decisions, because I am the only one who has to live with the decisions I make. I am done caring what others think of me, I don't need anyone's approval but my Father's. I'm not going to be afraid to disagree or to say what you don't want to hear. I will be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry. I'm going to be a little bit reckless, but within reason of course. I'm going to set and attain my biggest and littlest goals. I'm going to act my age. I'll eat til I can't eat anymore, then swear I'll never do it again when I'm burning it off on the treadmill. I will love whole-heartedly. I'll be spontaneous. I'm gonna live like I'm free.
No regrets.

thirty six

1. I've come to realize that I've...got very low tolerance for nosy and judgmental people.

2. I've come to realize that my job...at Curves means more to me than I lead on. I love helping women feel confident and beautiful.

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving... in the summer time with the windows down and music blaring is when I am in my happy place.

4. I've come to realize that I need... a vacation right now.

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...interest in some things I used to find extremely important.

6. I've come to realize that I hate...being alone for long periods of time.

7. I've come to realize that I miss… how easy everything was in high school.

8. I've come to realize that money... has more control in my life than I would like.

9. I've come to realize that certain people... will never change. 

10. I've come to realize that I'll always...be a country girl, even though I love the city.

11. I've come to realize that my siblings...are 3 very admirable young adults. They're a huge inspiration to me!

12. I've come to realize that my mom... is my rock. I am one lucky daughter!

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone... needs an upgrade asap. I'm thinkin' iPhone.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning...I should be thankful for another day, but sometimes I neglect that thought.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep...I rub my feet together to get comfy cozy.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...about how Charlie Sheen is an idiot.

17. I've come to realize that my dad... is exactly the kind of man I want to marry. He's the best man I know and I love him SO MUCH.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook... I will stay on Facebook. Which is part of the reason it is deactivated, currently.

19. I've come to realize that today...is going to be a great day.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...I don't really know what I am doing.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow... isn't promised.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to... be the kind of person who prepares for the worst, but hopes for the best.

23. I've come to realize that the person who means most to me...is not of this world. He's a King, and I'm His princess.

24. I've come to realize that life...is full of very crazy surprises!

25. I've come to realize that this weekend... is oh so far away...

26. I've come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset is...acoustic. It makes everything better.

27. I've come to realize that I couldn't live... in Antarctica, tis too cold.

28. I've come to realize that this year... already has been one of the best years of my life.

29. I've come to realize that my ex...is my ex for a reason and I'm smart enough to keep it that way.

30. I've come to realize maybe I should... take more risks.

31. I've come to realize I love... helping people.

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...why certain things happen, but I do believe that God has a purpose for everything.

33. I've come to realize my past... has shaped me into the person I am today, and although I shouldn't, I do regret some of my choices.

34. I've come to realize that parties... just aren't my thing. Really though.

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...of being alone.

36. I've come to realize that my life... is complicated, chaotic, and spontaneous...I wouldn't change one bit of it.

My vice...

There is no simple way to describe my adoration for photography. What can be captured in a photo goes beyond what can be described with words. It's my guilty pleasure, I need it like oxygen. Because of it, I now have a new curiosity and passion for life that I've never had before; I refuse to let the littlest things that occur in the world, you know, those things that occur one moment and are forever gone the next, to go unnoticed. Call me simple, but I am more than entertained by the rare moments of humanity and nature than anything else in this world! It is the art of capturing and holding on to memories forever. It's the smell after the rain and how the dew rests perfectly where it lands; it's the sight of that sweet bumblebee sipping on the nectar of a freshly blooming flower for the first time after winter; it's the laughter between good friends; it's the way the sun shines so perfectly in the evening. I appreciate that God took the time to perfect every detail of the smallest flower to the biggest tree. My deepest desire is to capture the raw reflections of God's creation with my camera so that it is born forever into the world.

 

 

 

A beautiful sadness

"I love life . . . I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid."

-Butters, SP